missy reading the great gatsby

The Great Gatsby – One Book

One book that I love is ‘The Great Gatsby’. I fell in love with it when I was 17 and I have remained true, dipping into it over the years, watching the various film adaptations, and once, even teaching it.  The copy here is the original that I bought back […]

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missy watching from a window

Window watching

There is something about watching from a window. It feels like time well spent on the observations made. Meaningless in themselves, they require nothing from me in terms of response and yet, each picture evokes a response regardless. What looks like a simple daydream from the outside, is actually the […]

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outrage

Outrage

So I know that I am later with my Masturbation Monday post than I would like to be. I also know that this isn’t about masturbation and that it doesn’t fit the prompt. However, Kayla has always been very gracious in allowing a variety of posts and, as someone who […]

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Showing Stigma the Finger

Showing Stigma the Finger

I have been fortunate not to have suffered a lot of stigma in my life, but when I saw an email from Hot Octopuss yesterday explaining their #ShowStigmaTheFinger campaign, I felt it was such a good cause that I wanted to take part. Anything that raises the profile of a […]

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Fear, insecurity, anxiety and self-doubt

There’s a fear. Fear of falling behind, of not meeting others’ expectations of me, of being left behind because I am just too slow and not good enough to keep up. And that is my life. I am well and truly over committed and falling behind; not meeting my own […]

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The road not taken

The road not taken for a very long time

I have written about discovering that I was submissive before and, little pitch coming up, even had a piece called ‘Submission and Me‘ published in ‘Discovery; An Eroticon Anthology’.  I have wondered about why it took me until I was in my 40s to work it all out and why […]

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Awkward

Now that’s awkward!

The prompt word for Wicked Wednesday this week is AWKWARD.  Well I have been in a lot of awkward situations in my lifetime but the ones which are more relevant to here are concerning the two different areas of my life: kinky and non-kinky.  While some overlap goes unnoticed, there […]

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writing

Writing: The what and the why

I have always enjoyed writing but it isn’t something felt I was good at as a young person. I wrote stories which I made into books as a child, but when my sister started the same thing, it was hers that my parents held in esteem. I suppose after a […]

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authentic - woman with eye mask

Standing up to being authentic

I like to think that I am authentic.  I aim to be true to myself, not just here but in other areas too.  If I do something which I know compromises me then it plays on my mind and stresses me as I mull over it. I want to be […]

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Lucky

Lucky is a state of mind

So, this is late and is not the post that I was planning to write at all.  I had planned a combined post about luck and about words to live by but it is not this post. I had sat down at my laptop and written one line of the […]

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taboo

Taboo, or not taboo, that is the question

Well cast me out and curse me right now as I am going to be honest here; things which are taboo turn me on. That doesn’t mean that I am turned on by all things wrong of course, but what it does mean is that if I see something as […]

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Inside my head

Inside my head

My head is my retreat. I escape inside my head all of the time, wasting minutes and hours and days. I say wasted because not all of what is going on in my head is useful, but I retreat there none-the-less.  It is my place, my quiet space, although really […]

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faceless

Faceless

This is the one place in the world where I am faceless. Everywhere else I have a face and that says different things about me to different people. I don’t think my face is consistently translated either; it depends on the perception and experience of that particular person. One day […]

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Pleasure and subspace

Pleasure and subspace

For me, deep submission brings pleasure at its ultimate. It is a letting go of myself and the freedom that comes from that. My need for control means that actually I don’t seem to get properly lost in pleasure unless I have given control of myself up completely. I need […]

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Fantasies

When your fantasies don’t align

Fantasy is defined as being the faculty or activity of imagining impossible or improbable things. It seems unlikely then that the fact that your fantasies don’t align would matter. And I suppose that is how I have always felt before. What is purely imagining of the impossible or improbable is […]

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Room 101

Room 101 for Food For Thought Friday #101

The prompt this week for Food For Thought Friday is Room 101. As an Orwell fan,, I thought about using ‘1984’ as my inspiration and writing about my worst fear. I have written about fear before and being honest, the thought of Winston Smith with the rat cage attached to […]

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