nudity and freedom

Nudity and freedom

I have mixed feelings about nudity. I can find being naked really liberating and sometimes I am totally on board with it, but my fragile body image and body dysmorphia can also make being naked an impossibility. My mixed feelings extend to taking pictures. I tend not to publish those […]

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Want to play

Want to play?

Some say I don’t play well with others. I say it depends on who it is and what they want to play. Click on the badge to see who else is taking part in MONOCHROMEROTIC or click here for more of my images

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Confidence

Sex, submission and confidence

I have low confidence. That is not to say I am not confident in some things, knowledge about certain topics and stuff, but in myself, not really, no. I have quite low self esteem too. It is a fragile thing and although my life pretty much validates me, it is […]

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erotic photography and where it fits

Erotic photography and where it fits

This post is about erotic photography and where it fits within our D/s dynamic. I have written about photography before, including pieces about publishing images, and also some pieces which touch on how it can make me feel with regard to my submission to HL. Over the years I have […]

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Valentine’s Date Night

We never really do anything for Valentine’s Day.  One reason is that it is so close to my Birthday and we have usually celebrated that in some way, and the other is that I am not really a big fan of commercialised days and ways to mark how I feel. […]

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romance - extract from valentine by carol ann duffy

Romance

I thought that I would start with the Carol Ann Duffy poem, ‘Valentine’ because, through her metaphysical interpretation, she turns on its head our preconceptions of romance, and I have always quite liked that. In comparing love to an onion, she covers many of the aspects of relationships which are […]

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Fifty

Fifty has always sounded quite old to me so the fact that it is actually here feels a little odd.  I have thought for a while about the fact that I wanted to celebrate it though, because really, I think that it conjured up a different image in my head […]

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Mindful Masturbation

Mindful Masturbation

Setting the Scene It is a Sunday morning and I am sitting in the bath, about to  masturbate with a toy. It is nearly two weeks since I decided that I was going to prioritise me time and connecting with my body.  The fact that it has taken so long […]

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flaunting myself

If you’ve got it, flaunt it.

I am not very good at flaunting myself. I tend not to have the confidence to do it, although I would like to. I have been able to do it before and have enjoyed it. It has only come at a time when I felt really good about myself, usually […]

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Sexy Pictures

Sexy Pictures

The first sexy pictures I ever took were for HL. This is probably partly due to my age. Mobile phones and modern technology have made it so much easier and more commonplace. The fear and embarrassment of where and how to develop such pictures is no longer an issue, and […]

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reading sexuality and submission

Reading, sexuality and submission

Reading can spur a lot of erotic emotions, thoughts, and actions. Write about the books, magazines, or other reading materials that have shaped your sexuality. The first book to shape my sexuality was Nancy Friday’s ‘Forbidden Flowers’. I had masturbated before, and had even orgasmed before I knew what it […]

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Being Beautiful

Being Beautiful

More and more I feel that I am changing. I feel that I am able to escape from some of the poorer ideas that life leaves you with and indulge my emotions in the more positive ones. I guess it is because so much of how you see yourself is […]

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D/s has made me sexy

D/s has made me sexy

I think that for most women, being desired makes them feel sexy.  That ‘I want you to want me’ idea still reigns strong and sometimes that can be a hard thing to find. The drudge of daily life can drag you down and mean that you begin to feel a […]

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