Lap Dance - triptych of erotic dance

The Lap Dance – April’s Submissive Training Journal

L is for Lap Dance
Today was a surprise. When I was told that we were each to perform an erotic dance, I pretty much froze inside. I was so scared and didn’t think it was something that I would ever be able to do. We had covered all sorts of erotic dances, from those where there was a lot of physical contact, to those where it was much more about the suggestion and the intimacy. The key thing with all of them was to connect with the person you were dancing for. The objective was to stimulate erotic thoughts in the viewer, to make them want you and what you appeared to be offering or suggesting. Wow. Could I do that?

We were allowed to select something to wear so I chose a black bralette, thong and heels. I knew that I needed to feel sexy and I would have to try to do that myself initially. I only hoped that once it started I would feel encouraged by the atmosphere and the way that dancing could make me feel. I hope that I would get over my nerves and my self-consciousness, but it felt like a real stretch. I looked around the dressing room, and the faces I saw all showed the same nervous expression that I felt I wore myself. Well no-one had led me to believe this would ever be easy I thought, but so far it had all exceeded my expectations so I had to trust it would be fine.

With a deep breath, I walked into the room. The lights were dimmed and there was nothing in it apart from the chair at one side. The music was playing loudly. I did as we had been asked and knelt by the chair and waited, listening to the music and trying to get myself in the right frame of mind. I pushed my nerves to the side and thought about my own need to be desired intensely. I thought about all the feelings that had been evoked from me so far during my experience here and attempted to channel those into something I could work with. I closed my eyes and let my mind calm, allowing the music to move through my body internally.

When he entered the room, I looked up. He sat in the chair and took one of my hands, holding it between both of his.
“Thank you for doing this for me April,” he said. “I am sure I will enjoy your performance so just try to feel my eyes on you and allow that to drive you.”
I nodded and allowed him to pull me onto my feet, using my hand. I knew that I needed a minute so I turned my back to him and closed my eyes again, gently beginning to sway as I let the music take over and become part of me. Finding the rhythm, I made my movements larger, swaying my hips and using my shoulders to work my upper body.

Suddenly something within me seemed to shift and I really felt it. A thrill washed over me and I felt myself letting go. The music became what I was and he became my focus. Turning, I used my arms to draw him to me, still moving my lower body in circular movements. I tossed my head back and went with it. I felt sexy and full of desire for him. I imagined him touching me and how that would feel. I was lost in the music now and in what I was doing. No longer conscious movements, it had become an expression of how I felt and what I wanted. It was an expression of what I was and at that moment, and I was his.

I am not sure how long I danced for him for. I had gone beyond myself and my own inhibitions and was on the other side of everything that ever held me back about myself. I was what he wanted and what I wanted to be for him. My body moved in ways I would not usually use it as I tried to show him how I felt, translating my desire and longing into expressions of movement. It felt like it was not my own, as I teased and offered and tantalised, becoming someone who was free enough to be about this and only this, living in the moment and making that moment feel as if it was all that was ever needed in the world.

I felt such a high, as I had done from other things I had experienced here. It confused me a bit and even when the music came to an end, and he thanked me, I wasn’t ready for it all to be over, feeling that there was more and that I didn’t want to stop. I was still drifting away somewhere, beyond my own body and my own reality and I couldn’t wait to compare notes with the others.

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To catch up on other posts in this series please see April’s Submissive Training Journal
Or read last year’s letter L post for the A to Z blogging challenge: Limits, Labels and Life

Posted in A to Z Challenge 2019.

38 Comments

  1. This is sooo nerve wrecking but sooo perfect. This account sucked me in!!! I was drooling as if you were dancing for me. You expressed the emotions felt here so perfectly.

    • Thank you so much Dinah. I don’t do it a lot but really enjoy it when I do and have been surprised how easily the music allows me to let go and slip into the right sort of mindset. missy x

  2. I love how we can see a peek of your face but the edit hides the rest… Your body is absolutely stunning… These images are quite the tease – giving the full 360 degrees x

    • Thank you LSB. It is hard to remove the face without ruining the image but needs must I suppose. I am glad that the feeling of movement came over in the still shots. missy x

  3. Such beautiful images and a fabulous story. I know you’ve said you don’t feel you write fiction well… but… these stories are fabulous!

    • Thank you sweet – I do really appreciate that. It is the ideas that I struggle with for fiction but writing what I know is a bit easier. missy x

  4. I love how much of this experience is a letting go for her. How it makes her feel sexy when she remembers that she’s doing this to please whomever is watching. Also, that photo set at the top is super sexy.

    • Thank you Cara. I was trying to find a photo that would work – sometimes that is taking me longer than writing the post lol.

  5. I have danced for an audience of one…. I don’t think I could do it for more than though but it was a very sexy thing to do and when I think about it, it makes me wet

    Mollyx

    • Yes I am not sure I could do it for more than one either but agree about the effect of a private dance! ?

    • Thank you so much gem. Although I feel nervous I do love dancing like this once I get into it so it was fun to do and to write about. missy x

    • Thank you. I think the A to Z challenge has been good for me but I will be glad once I have finished it and can get back to my regular posts. missy x

    • Thanks Julie. I do enjoy dancing like this so I should probably schedule another show sometime soon ?

  6. Oh fab photos you have such a fantastic figure too –
    I am useless at dancing for people – I am not a performer at all – except a sex act you know – i perform a bit then 😉 loved this journal post as well x

  7. Lapdancing or any kind of erotic dancing is not something I would do, as I just don’t feel comfortable about it. The images here are absolutely gorgeous!

    Rebel xox

    • I didn’t think I would be ok with it either but once I started it got easier. I found dancing like that for him came to me more readily than a striptease which he also asked me to do. As I habw got better about my body it has been less of a stretch but I need to be in the right mindset ?

  8. I love the use of the triptych to capture a tantalising glimpse of you and your figure in motion. It really compliments the words and illustrates that initial apprehension that gives way to confidence and an all consuming enjoyment of the dance. I’ve never done this but you inspire me to x

  9. These photos are absolutely gorgeous! The lighting is amazing and the lights, not sure if it’s bokeh, or stage lights, are so cool and add such a mood! And the way you described the dancing is so beautiful. I was nervous when you mentioned it, imagining myself dancing for someone, I couldn’t really do it. But you made it sound amazing and possible and worthwhile. I’m definitely going to be thinking about this for awhile.

    • Thank you so much for such a lovely comment. The lights were a filter that I put over the photo which was a bokeh filter but didn’t happen naturally. I don’t dance often and my mood and the music have to be right but when I do I can get quite deep into my submissive space so it works well for me that way. missy x

    • Awww that is a pity. I do like to dance anyway so that helps I think but the mood and the music have to be right for me to feel it’s enough to do this. It pushes my boundaries a bit so I have to be in my submissive headspace ?

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