A to Z - NA to Z Challenge – N

My first N is NUDITY. Nudity is something that HisLordship loves and wants more of. I struggled with it initially but have made leaps and bounds of late. When I did my submissive advent calendar for him, I included naked piano playing and a naked bake which he loved. There have been various other instances where I have pushed myself or when he has pushed me and one of these was in allowing him to take pictures of me in various states of undress. For someone who was uncomfortable being viewed naked at the beginning this has been huge progress and it has culminated in me posting various pictures as part of my Throwing Caution to the Window project.

My second N is NEED and this is something that has also been challenging for me. As a strong and independent woman, to allow myself to ‘need’ anyone was tricky – being honest it still is. This is something that has certainly come from D/s though and in allowing Sir to see my vulnerability I have gained a huge amount. It felt unfamiliar at first to admit that I felt more needy of him, but as I now see the benefits to the relationship it has become a positive thing. I need him now both physically and emotionally, not to survive or to manage, but to be truly happy and to live the type of life that I want to. The post, i need You, is about how that feels.

My final N is NIPPLE PLAY.  Nipple Play, as I explain, is not something that I ever wanted prior to my relationship with HL but that is something else that has changed. I love the way that he will pinch or bite or pull them and even enjoy the cane or the flogger on them now. He has always said that he loves them but that was something I found hard to accept. I felt they were ‘ruined’ through years of breastfeeding so I am glad that finally I am able to shift my thinking a bit, accept that his opinion matters, and enjoy what he does with them.

I hope that reading my letter N has been nice.  Check tomorrow for the letter O and to see the rest of my A-Z, click here: A to Z Challenge.